letting go.

yesterday the fam attended a meeting at immaculate conception to get the details about registering emma for kindergarten this september. i can't even believe it. i knew this day would come but not this fast. i remember the exact moment i thought of her going off to school, it was our first home in vancouver. she was only a few months old and it was a time i wish i could've held onto forever. now, 4-ish years and another baby later, my first baby is ready for real school.

sure, she`s been to preschool, she attended a montessori preschool when we were living in vancouver and she learned such a wealth of skills from it. but this is school school. i only hope i`ve prepared her enough to enter that world without fear.

i remember when i started school, it was terrifying! being a child of deaf parents meant my sister and i lacked the skills to socialize in a `hearing`community. yeah of course we talked to other kids and our family whom apart from our parents are hearing, but to be pushed out of that bubble and into this world where you`re constantly interacting with others can -and was intimidating.

emma is an innocent, fun loving and silly girl. she loves princesses and can`t wait for her 5th birthday party which she`s decided is going to be a princess party. she started talking about this literally the day after her 4th birthday party which was 5 months ago! she has an amazing imagination..give her a piece of string and a sock, and she`ll turn it into a lock of rapunzel`s hair and a purse. she appreciates simplicity and i pray all of these qualities will only continue to grow and fade when they`re supposed to.

if i could be there every single day to defend her in a classroom quarrel, kiss the boo boo`s at recess or just have lunch with her, i would. but i know that i can`t. atleast not for long. she`ll have to learn to muster up the courage to do those things on her own. so i guess instead of looking at it as letting her go, i`ll think of it as preparing her for the rest of her life. i`ll remind her to respect others and share, listen and speak politely and always be her amazing self.

k someone pass me a tissue now!!