today, this girl is 30.

we're finally here.

 i have a whole 30 years behind me that cannot be

undone.

a life of fun, laughter, tears, anger, heartbreak,

love, hatred, sadness & joy. also, childbirth.
twice.
(ow.)

some people say actually everyone says it`s all
down hill after 30. or is it 40? anyway, i choose not to
get sucked into that negative way of thinking and believe
that there are greener pastures ahead.

and actually, i think it's pretty sweet that i've accomplished
so much in the last 10 years even. today, i walk into my 30's
with a family i built all on my own.
a wonderful and loving husband with whom i share a marriage
that continues to grow as we learn not to tear eachother's eyes out from each other
everyday (just kidding hun, i love you!)
and 2 absolutely amazing little girls with
personalities that prefer to test me  shine
equally as bright even though they are entirely different.

 my family has also expanded.
i've watched my sister bring my niece and nephew
into this world and couldn't have been more lucky than
to share this life changing moment with her and my brother in law.
it's crazy to think that years ago she would have given me a black eye
 been upset over borrowing a shirt without asking and now,
she's like, my best friend.

i've inherited my husband's family as my own.
a sister whom i've watched grow from a girl to
a woman and a mother to a sweet daughter whom
i'll have the pleasure of seeing more of now that
mama's back to work. and i have another mother,
who dotes (probably more than i'd prefer, but i know
it's out of love! lol) over us and would move mountains
for her granddaughters.

i see my parents, now older than the image that
i have in my head of them. they've now become grandparents
to 4 very rambunctious grandchildren.
you're welcome.

i started a great new job last year and from that i've gained
a lot of different experiences, gone back to school and made
some really great friendships.

all of this and i just turned 30. now what? i'm going to
disneyland!!! just kidding. i don't know. but what i do know
is that i have plenty to be thankful for and i know in my heart
everything that it took to get me here.

oh i know!
i know i'm going to love embarrassing my kids as they get older!
i know that i'd love to travel to italy, just me and my hubs!
um, i know i'm going to love my new townhouse when
we finally move into it!

well, in true mama style, i've compiled a bunch
of photos of myself through the ages..

welcome to the world jzabela rozalia!

me and my moms

my first birthday!

no, i'm not sniffing the doll, there's a sharp pointy thread sticking out

on the bottom of this doll's foot and i'm rubbing it against my nose!

i don't know what to say about this picture really, except

look at my sister's face LOL

ahh preschool! look at those dangly earrings

grade 1! i remember this jogging set and that it said

'lace' on the front and i also remember absolutely 

hating the pants.

a visit to disneyland just isn't complete without personalized

sailor hats and spandex.

no comment.

our trip to poland. i was just shy of 16.

whoa, now i get why people said my mom, sis and i 

looked like sisters.

we rocked the short 'do cuz it was cool, okay?

my 19th birthday!! self tanner FAIL!!! totally remembering

having a self tanner mustache after this night.

24 years old and in labor with emma. yeah, that was gonna

take a loooooooong time.

she's finally here!

first time mama with her baby...miss these days

we spent a lot of hours on that rocking chair!

maw and paw at emma's 1st birthday

me and my mini me feeding ducks at the pond!

having a beer on our wedding anniversary trip to victoria

my assistant helping me decorate a cake..

en route to our first disneyland trip!

verrrry pregnant with olivia!

at olivia's baby shower

insert hugest sigh of relief that was a tough labor!!

mama and baby olivia

christmas time with olivia!

reading, a favorite past time with olivia

mama slowly getting her groove back!

stand in mama for my nephew's mother's day tea

me and my mini me at disneyland!

me and my handsome at the beach

mama and olivia sharing a kiss in oregon

completed a 5k race!! have lost 10lbs and i'm

gonna keep going! watch out summer 2013, i WILL

be debuting a bikini bod!

and now to announce something new!

 on my birthday, i am officially launching my new cake company:

{the cake mama}

a name i can tag to all of the wonderful creations

my friends and family ask me to do!

to visit my brand new website, click on the image below!

happy birthday to me, indeed!!!